Reply to Lucy

 Professor: Nag

4/12/1363

Forgiveness / Forgive, Forget

"Forgiveness is Great, Right ?

" Wrong !

Forgiveness is another religious concept that has been distorted

to control the masses of sheep.

Let me explain the problem with forgiveness:

Unless we have been physically hurt by another person,

and even that can only hurt our bodies,

not our souls,

 our pain is self inflicted.

The whipmaster is an ego

whose job it is to keep us in the track of seeking pleasure

and avoiding pain,

which is a round about way of denying us our souls...

denying us our souls being the ego's primary job.

Actually the ego's primary job is self preservation

and the soul is the one thing that the ego fears most,

as it is it's destroyer.

The reality of the pain we believe others inflict upon us

is that our ego's inflicts it upon ourselves.

They may be standing over there saying "blah blah blah blah,"

but we turn it into a transgression by our ego's reaction to it.

Forgiveness implies and in the process validates a transgression

that doesn't exist anywhere except in our own minds

and our consequent emotional reaction to that.

Possibly that person is attempting to inflict emotional pain

or mental confusion upon us,

and possibly their intentions are not "good",

but that is their problem to deal with.

If we take their problem unto ourselves

with our judgments and emotional turmoil....

who then is playing the ego's fool?

Therefore in our high and mighty forgiveness

we are actually the ones transgressing Peace.

We are transgressing Spirit

by placing blame on someone

for doing something to us that we have really done to ourselves.

Placing blame is just another ego tool

to move stuff around in the web of our ego created illusion,

to make us feel a little more comfortable.

It's important to understand that whenever we forgive,

we are also placing blame/judgment.

So there is no evolution,

there is no letting go.

We may have, in all our wonderful goodness

granted this person our forgiveness,

but first we had to blame them for doing something to us,

that we actually did to ourselves.

Blame is as much a transgression

as whatever it is they did that we have forgiven.

Even Steven / No evolution.

As far as forgiving and forgetting goes:

When we say we are forgetting, we are wrong,

first of all we are creating that negative thing we say we are going to forget,

then we stuff it away in a dark corner of our mind.

Humans never really forget short of brain damage...

And then our created transgressions will manipulate us

in the future

from the dark corners where they hide.

The bottom line is that nobody really does anything to us,

we do it to ourselves by our mental and emotional reaction to it.

Even a physical blow does not touch our soul,

unless we, through a lot of negative energy, let it.

And now we have all those little demons

that we can't even see,

manipulating us from their dark corners...

very counter productive.

When we learn to free ourselves from the cords of man

and find our rightful place in the web of Spirit,

it will be impossible for us to be "hurt" by our fellow man.

We will discuss this later in the term.

Replace forgiveness with

 "Simply Loving".

Homework: Write something about forgiveness. What was learned today in class?

Applied Magic 101

Jeff Wilson

Professor: Nag

4/12/1363

Homework:

Forgiveness:

Forgiveness implies a transgression where none has occurred.

The implication of a transgression by the person "forgiving"

is as much of a transgression as the one that is supposedly being forgiven.

A soul can not be transgressed,

only an ego.

Forgiveness is an act of ego

that only serves to bolster the ego.

Forgiveness comes from blame,

Judgment

and self inflicted emotional turmoil.

Blame is as much a transgression as whatever we are forgiving.

Don't forgive ....

Simply Love!

The White Hall

The White Hall

I'm writing this today because I've re discovered a better place to go than Facebook to Communicate those things that matter most to me,(which don't seem to matter to too many people in the General Population) at least I hope it's better. I went to this "Spiritual Forum) years ago but became disillusioned because there were so many people going there just to......wallow in their "spiritual materialism". People who had read books or were just making stuff up, and were spouting things that they knew nothing about with great authority. What bothered me most was in areas where damage could be done because folks had just enough information to make what they shared dangerous. This was most apparent in areas such as Kundalini Yoga and Astral Projection/Travel... Where the wrong info applied by a person with a decent degree of Intention Development could damage themselves.... ( I know, I cheated and did most of the things my Teachers told me not to.....OUCH ). Anyway this place is a Spiritual forum you can find here.

What I'm talking about now is going to be what I call ,"the White Hall"...in response to a persons query to my use of the word in a thread about Death and the "Afterlife".

Since my Teachers didn't really use Language to teach, but more a Guided Experience....I've had to make up terms for all the things I experienced, and this can be problematic. The "White Hall is a perfect example because there are two places where I use this term.....and I'm not entirely positive that they are describing the same place.  So I'll explain both.

The First time I remember in this Life going there was on the night of the day that I had what some call ,"an initiation".   

I was this Normal seeming guy...it was 1970, or maybe early 1971. I had hiked up this little mountain called Mt. Helen or Ellen in the Santa Cruz Mtn's.  This is a picture I took on that actual day.

Well the experience I had is a common one...well fairly common. I was just sitting there on top of the mountain overwhelmed by the beauty I was seeing...I started to Cry and thought," I wish I could keep this feeling forever".....my thought at the time was I wished I had a camera, that that would somehow save the experience. he he.  Then a little voice in my head said,"Take it all in your mind, like a camera".  I opened my eyes really wide and tried to see everything all at once.  Next thing you know I Flash into this Light...brighter than anything on Earth..or the Sun....It's Bliss, then suddenly it's like I'm sitting on the outer edge of Creation, looking back in....and.... and what I saw was this Huge Golden Web of points of connected Light. ( I hadn't taken any drugs for those of you who might like to think that, I hadn't tried them YET, but started smoking pot right after that.)   But Everything about me Changed then.  I could "Feel" the Trees....I could listen to them.....and they led me immediately to a Bookstore in Palo Alto where I re connected with a Teacher from my last life.   Blah, blah, blah..... Anyway,  that night when I went to sleep I found myself in what I came to call, "The White Hall"... I called it that because it was nothing but White Light and the only outstanding feature was a man in front of me, in a white robe, teaching me stuff I would read the following day in White Magic by Alice Bailey, and a book on the Yoga Sutras of Patanjili...and one on Tibetan Yoga and Secret Doctrines.   I was only ever able to see his hands, each time I tried to look at his face I would dissolve into this Blissful White Light.... So I quit trying.  Well I found myself there every night, and it was so trippy how the Techniques he taught me, I'd read about the next day, then Practice....And it was so easy..... (wish it still was, but I didn't listen once when I really should have....and am still paying the price for that.) 

So that was what I first called ,"the White Hall".

I have to say though that it sort of Morphed over many years. At first it was just me and him....and all white.  But later there was a whole bunch of people (and strange animals) and the lessons were not just conveyed one to one telepathically, but rather as ....HMMM??? Experiences....like tests is a "real" world...and the Hall became very Ornate, everything was like a Treasure..... So, that is the first place I used the term.

Then I was shown what I came to call, "Yoga of the Death State", which basically was dying without cutting that silver cord.  And the main lesson here, the purpose of the whole teaching was to get me, "to the Light".....without falling into all the sidetracks (heavens, hells, constructs etc.) that tempt our attention in the "In Between Time".

Now what I have referred to here as ,"the White Hall" is that place you come into after you have spent as much time as possible in the Light.  The whole purpose of my learning how to die, was so I could get to the Light....and learn to stay there as long as possible... This is where Hyper Evolution is possible.   For those of you that have experienced this through Kriya or NDE's or whatever, you know what I'm talking about.    It was a problem for me because my teachers had a "rule of Three"....which I suppose I was supposed to follow, But in this case I didn't. And I did the yoga of the death state as often as I could.....and each time I went into "the Light"...I came out a totally different person.  This isn't so much a problem when you die, because folks in your new life have no idea who you used to be, and get to know who you are.  But when you totally change on a daily basis into a completely different person..... the folks around you, "here"....kind freak out.  This is a whole different story. Anyway after the time we spend ,"in the Light"... we come into this place that I have called, for lack of a better word, "the White Hall"....because it's all White and once again we are with Teachers and we are being Guided in creating the basic outline for our next life...an outline that will best serve our evolution...and the evolution of our Group.... As this is our souls prime directive....evolution that is. 

The Truth About Chemtrails and HAARP

OK, just to be on the safe side I'm going to call this little bit of Truth....Fiction

So there's been a lot of supposition about why these people find it necessary to spray toxic elements from airplanes.... 

The whole world over.

We've seen them "refueling" one of their planes twice above our house.

Two Huge planes connected up, right over us.

 Then spraying out their huge clouds in crisscross patters all across the sky.

Well there are a lot of ideas floating around out there about this..... but the truth is scarier than all of those ideas.

 But first to explain this I have to give you some background:

If you haven't read the part under,"Coming out of the scary Weirdness Closet about meeting the "German" and the mind control Healing Machine

Click here

And scroll down to those two chapters.

A short summation is that ,"the German" was a voice that entered my head when I was a young teen, just long enough to instruct me in the building of a machine that allowed a plant to express emotion auditorilly, and on the screen of an oscilloscope. 

He was alive at that time and probably in a building at Ames Research Center (NASA).

As soon as the project was done, he disappeared from my head for a number of years.

Later on, when he had been killed, his voice came back and told me about a Machine capable of healing most of Mankind's ailments.... but also capable of controlling minds.

I'm not going into all this now...

But suffice to say,

He's Back.

I've been doing my best to shut him out.

He approaches me on the Fifth Ray...

which you can probably Google if you don't know what that means... It doesn't really matter.... but the Fifth Ray for me is ....

HMMM?  It's like a whirlpool that pulls me into Patterns of Knowledge..

That just go on and on..... 

and kind of take me away....

On long journeys of discovery.

But I don't have time for that...

Takes all my time these days just to survive and pay the bills...

So I've attempted to avoid Him..

But it's becoming impossible.

So He's back and telling me more things....

And the most recent little bit of info was regarding chemtrails..

This is all in his area of expertise, he was head of the Mind Control Project back in the late 60's early 70's.

So here's the deal...

The Chemtrails are used for Mind Control...

Here is how it works.

Thoughts and emotions have very specific ,"energy signatures."

Thirty years ago ,"the Machine" was able to define specific energy signature of differing emotions and very specific thoughts.

It was also able to replicate these signatures on many levels.

With Radio Frequencies,

with Light Frequencies

and with elemental combinations.

It was entirely possible at this point to make people think or feel whatever the ones in control wanted to make them think or feel.

The German told me back in the early 70's that they were able to use certain elemental combinations to create certain emotions (generally anger and Fear).

And that they were able to use the RF frequencies and even just the proper combinations of color on a television screen, to bring about certain thoughts and emotions in people. 

This was how they created the Plant Machine through me

when I had no clue about what I was doing.

I was just a guinea pig in that little experiment.

But that was all many years ago and the science has come a long way.

Now we have things like HAARP, that can bounce thought and emotional patterns off the atmosphere...to any given point on the planet.

And what they have found is that by using a combination of the methods (light,rf,and elemental) they can make anyone think and do whatever they want.

If you take note of the News, which I try my best no to...

you will see a lot of things happening lately.

The murders in CO. And also various places around the world where poor folks who fit the right profiles are used to help further certain agenda's..

Like taking away your ability to protect yourself...

They use things like guilt and fear and the idea that eating certain diets (that are contrary to good health)...

are the right thing to do.

They make people believe the most obvious of lies,,,

like Sept 11th,

Like the death of Osama Bin Laden,

And keep the Sheep in their pens, believing that the Shepherds have their best interests at heart..

Even as the Shepherds are murdering people worldwide....millions of em

for greed...

And they even get the poor sheep to finance the mass murder.

So, the Chemtrails are simply a specific combination of elements that resonate at certain frequencies, that can be further stimulated through various means... (the color combinations at half time of the most popular football games).

Color and sound combinations on a movie screen...

Chemical combinations in your processed foods...

And bounced off the atmosphere right into your home.

Your thought and emotions are no longer entirely your own.

It's time to quiet our minds and emotions and listen to our souls.

This is, and actually has always been the road to true freedom.

Humpty Dumpty and the Ghost

Humpty Dumpty and the Ghost

This post has been a long time coming...

and it'll probably be a long time going...as in a long freakin post..

And unless you are interested in having your ideas about reality seriously expanded into some weird new regions,

I'd forget about reading this...

and go do something else. 

I'm about to share some things here that I haven't even wanted to share with myself...

And it's difficult to know where to start.

Right now I'm having some physical body difficulties.

A great deal of Pain.

I can walk for about 5 minutes...

before I can barely move my right leg without tremendous pain.

It sucks.

I can't bend my knee to get down and work in the garden.

I can't walk around Market and visit folks...

And it's all because of Humpty Dumpty and the Ghost..

Or maybe I can blame it on my Teachers

in my last life...

Or my repressed anger towards them..

Well , no

I know the exact moment

the exact decision and action that I took

that led me to this.

and to the Cancer

that I had removed about 15 years ago.

(Sharing enough yet?)..

So I've been going to Physical Therapy to address

THE SYMPTOMS

of that Choice and action...

 I'm about to tell you the story of what got me here.

In hopes that it will open some doors for me to 

Reverse the Choice

that led to all this.

So I guess I'll begin with some History

that will be useful in understanding the 

Big Picture here.

In my past life I lived in a Monastery in Tibet.

I had 2 primary Teachers.

That really pissed me off... he he

I'm finally admitting this 

because I think it's central to what got me here.

This Life was spent mostly in Meditation

and exploring the boundaries of what is Humanly possible.

(here's a tip.... ANYTHING)

But the Chinese soldiers were coming.

We could have run...

we could have hidden,

or we could have simply bowed down to them...

And Lived.

My teachers knew this.

But they said that our time,

isolated from the rest of world was over

that all over the world the isolated groups like us,

were making the conscious choice...

to spread out across the Globe.

And this was done mostly through the help of

the bullets of the Oppressors.  

We were told to allow them to kill us...

I had a slight problem with that...

But I agreed.

We were given the choice of bow down and live.

Or stand up and die.

We all died,

but unfortunately I couldn't bear to look into the eyes

of the soldier....

I was towards the middle of the row of monks.

They went one by one shooting us in the heads.

And when my turn came I couldn't bear to look into the face of the soldier..

it wasn't so much fear....

but I couldn't bear to "see" him.

And I cast my eyes down.

( I had conveniently forgotten this little guilt creating choice, until I was reminded about it by an old guy earlier in this Life...

who just happened to be there when he was a young man in this one)

You can read a little about that in my "Coming out of the Scary Weirdness closet" post here: Scroll down to Section 6C

So my last thought before I was shot was,

OH, CRAP..... my Brothers will think I was bowing down when I lowered my eyes.

I've carried a lot of guilt about that....

But the whole reason I mention this

 is just so you'll understand why,

in this Life...

I only listened to my Teachers when I felt like it. 

Because in 1970 after my "Experience" on that Mountain..

(which you can also probably read about under the link posted above)...

My teachers returned to my Life...

in a big freakin way.

Only difference was they didn't have bodies attached.

So that was pretty monumental.

And we took up right where we had left off in the previous life.

Mainly exploring the boundaries...

or lack thereof

of the Universe.

This brings us to a primary practice which I've dubbed,

"Yoga of the Death State".

Which was basically going through the whole process of Dying,

without cutting that silver cord that binds us to our bodies...

And this "Yoga's" purpose was not just to learn a lot of interesting stuff..

but to amplify evolution.

You see every time we die,

at least once we're at a certain evolutionary stage,

(past the halfway point on the wheel)

the amount of time we spend "in the Light" part of the death experience...

The more we evolve.

The whole rule for this Yoga was..

Don't be distracted by the Heavens and Hells

or anything else...

and go straight to the Light..

And stay in it as long as possible.

(of course I cheated a few times....WHEW!

(if you want to know more about the death process I'm sure I've written about it on my Mystic Orb blog, just use the "search" option at the top right of the page).

So ....

I was a maniac...

My teachers told me to only do this yoga a limited amount...

in fact it was probably under conditions of their,

"Rule of Three".

They had this thing called the rule of Three...

Basically they said we humans are way too habitual Creatures..

And they were showing me how to do some AMAZING things.

But they said if I did any of them more than three time..

I would become habituated to them

and they would become a hindrance....

This is one of those cases where my deep seated repressed anger made me do just what I wanted..

So I spent a lot of time 

basically dying and going 

"Into the Light".

Well this has a very dramatic effect.

When we do it when we are really dead,

it's no big freakin deal because

we're born again in a whole new body, as a baby

and folks get to know us slowly.

But when we are doing it, 

when we are alive...

each time we come out of it...

we're a totally different person from the one who went in.

Because that Light..

and the longer we spend in it...

is what evolves us.. in the death state

(after that midway in evolution point).

So  the outside world,

and most notably my girlfriend,

would suddenly be faced with a totally different person than she knew the day before.

(you can read a little about this in section 5 of the link above)

But the upshot was.....

She eventually freaked.....

And I made the 

HMM???

what's the word...

CRAZIEST 

decision a human could make.

And one I doubt many LIVING  souls

have ever made.

(although maybe one in a million DEAD souls make it...

as it's where "Ghosts" come from.)

I literally became a Living Ghost as the outcome of what I've come to call,

My Humpty Dumpty Episode.

(also written about a little in the Coming out of the Scary Weirdness Closet).

So I'm going to tell you where ghosts come from.

There is something that humans have that I've dubbed,

"the Construct"

It probably has an official name, but I don't know it.

Basically it is our souls Astral Reflection.

It is an energetic pattern so to speak..

of who we WERE.

Note that it is past tense.

It's also what folks see when they die,

if they are still in the "tunnel"

as their "dearly departed loved ones"

Because we don't see our group....

inside the "tunnel"

(which by the way is the spinal column).

We do see our "group right outside of it...

Anyway

All the energy of thought and emotion that has gone into defining us..... has by Law got to manifest after a certain amount of time.

So all except very new souls have this construct...

which is literally like a shadow that follows us around on the astral plane..

Which by the way is the area we pass through on "death".

And once we get past the halfway point in our evolution....

where our souls process changes from collecting...

to discarding....

this construct begins to ...

break apart.

It's like with every...

evolutionary step we take..

part of that construct sheds off,

like skin from a snake...

yet it still kind of floats for a time in the orbit of the construct.

That Astral Law of Magnetism

Anyway, a ghost is a soul that instead of going forward through the death process....

which is Normal

it looks back upon it's construct...

(I think a lot of old Myths were built around this)

the whole "turning to stone or salt or whatever" 

And because of Laws of the Astral Plane where this occurs...

it is drawn towards...

and merges with it's construct...

Basically binding itself to who it WAS.

Well when my girlfriend

(who I loved deeply, or so I thought)

was FREAKING

and begging me to go back to ,

"Who I was"..

And considering that at that moment I could "see"

all her future.... choices aiding her evolution...

I said,

"If I do will you come to the "light" with me."

She said yes....

It suited me to believe that..

and against my teachers basically yelling,

I did my little Yoga of the Death State,

Broke a major rule,

and turned to look at my construct....

And By doing that, all those 

Pieces of myself that had been shed like a skin..

came crashing back to me.

(the Law of Magnetism is pretty freakin MAJOR on the astral plane).

Which is why the most important lesson my teachers gave me about dying was...

Keep focused upon the Light...

and don't be distracted....

But the problem was, 

 all these pieces originally were collected in a very precise order.

"Everything in it's place".

But this lame ass move brought them all crashing back to me...

just a big mish mash.

And when I came out of it...

I could no longer hear my teachers,

I could no longer see my girlfriends

  Path and choices... 

And I was a freakin Psychic Mess.

I was totally OPEN

Like Autistic..

And I felt all the emotions, physical pains

 and thoughts of people within about a city block.

And I lived in a densely populated area of apartments....

YIKES!!!!!

I didn't last long.

The only way I could survive..

Was by going into the Light....

And I was a Telephone Man..

Going into the Light on the top of a Pole..

Wasn't conducive to my health..

I also was working inside in "frames".

But one day I went into the Light...

and couldn't come out...

They took me home....

I had to quit my job and move into a VW bus with my then wife...

as far from humans as possible.

I also had this ability to heal folks....

which was pretty cool, 

but Not.

Because the way it worked was,

someone would come into our camp..

And I was wide open,

so it was like all of their 'Stuff"

was inside of me...

And generally I'd like go into these 

Kundalini convulsions.

And the only way I could get out of it,

was by going Into the Light.....

And when I did...

they were cured and I wasn't convulsing any more...

Well you know this society isn't set up to support folks just sitting up on some mountain In the Light.

The medical profession medicated me

which didn't help much...

And I really wanted to be part of the world...

or at least felt like there were no other options...

So I made a conscious choice.....

You see when we are wide open

everything comes in through our belly region.

Like for me, near the base of the spine ..

And I found that I could maintain my solidity

around humans.... If I blocked that incoming energy,

where it came in.

I had done it at other levels up and down my spine but it caused immediate problems,

but I found if I blocked it before it came in...

I could Deal...

 I knew also that blocking energy...
.. is at the base of much disease...

(as is over amplified energy).

But on that day in the late 70's I decided to attempt to become

part of the world...

And I willfully put an energetic block at the base of my spine...

I told my wife that it'd be a problem in 20 years...

and in about that time

I got cancer

(the oncologist said it was a slow growing kind and probably took about 13 years).

It was more like 20...

So I had that cut out...

But refused to even question myself about the Block I had put there..

Because I knew it was still there,

and didn't want to face that....

But now I am....
whether I want to or not...

and can barely walk....

And the question is....

How do I remove it...

or

Am I willing to.

Because without it.....

There's just too damn much coming in...

Because removing it is really just also a conscious choice.

And if I do......

Then I can be who I really am....

But I'm afraid.

And the reality is, it isn't what comes in to me..

that is the problem...

it's what I attach to what comes in...

It's when I attach my own stuff to it..

Because guess what...

what does us harm on energetic levels is NEVER 

"out there".

There are people and entities that may have negative intentions...and even energetic actions towards us...

but unless we attach our own stuff to it...

no harm can be done.

And sometimes in the dark

at a drum circle where all I'm doing is drumming

and I'm High...

I can drop the block

and let it all in

without attaching anything but Love to it....

And I know this is the answer..

But I've never allowed it in the Light of Day..

And it's not just my fear of what will "come in"

But also 

in a major way,

my fear of what my Loved Ones will think

if they were to see me

as I really am.

It made my first wife hysterical....

The Choice

The Choice

Lifetime after Lifetime,

Fighting for Justice

Unable not to when

confronted by ...

Humanity...

Doing it's evil deeds.

Forever Exposing it

Then cutting it off..

Relentless....

A Prisoner of the Passion

For Unity..

And they tease me and taunt me..

In roles of Power they kill my fellow men..

And say I can do nothing but stand by and watch

Because they Have all the Power...

And the masses have been lied to for so long

they don't have much of a clue as to what is really going on...

But that was my Yesterday

And the day before that....

Now 

I simply want to Be.

You don't have to wait to die

To go to Heaven

Pretty much you just have to ACCEPT it

Here and Now.

The "Here and Now" that is Eternity.

You just gotta drop the Shackles

And Accept.

When I see the most recent manipulations

trickling out through the media

Setting up the Masses on a nice line

to their destruction..

I wanna jab,

I wanna .....

Yell

Come on People

Open your eyes...

And don't Buy the Lie...

Because I gotta quit feeling responsible 

for fixing it..

I can't fix it..

My Job now is to

Live in Peace

Simply

What "they" do..

isn't my concern...

So I'm thinking that maybe if I write out a List

Of all the Lies I can think of that the Masses are now,

and have been fed..

Just get it out of my system..

Out "There"...  

where I can be done with it...

Then I can get on with my Job of

Being AT Peace

We only "Win"

When we give up the Battle..

We can not, "Fight for Peace"

We can 

Simply Be At Peace

Simply

Be

AT

PEACE

The Farmer and a Lesson About Judgment

Once upon a Time there was a Family of Farmers.
One day a blessed event occurred and they had another little boy child....
But as it turned out it wasn't really all that wonderful.
From the time the child was very small it seemed he didn't much like his family
and when he got older he made it very clear
that he hated their way of Life...
He hated Farming...
Farming was stupid,
and people who farmed were stupid....
Well the child "had problems"
He wasn't a happy child,
he ran away from home when he was a teen,
started hanging out with some rich kids who didn't really care about anything
but getting thrills...
and doing hard core drugs.
He became addicted to heroin....
He was wasting away and one day took an extra big dose......
He flashed into this place that was nothing but Light....
then suddenly he was in another scene
another time long long ago.
It was like a dream,
but he knew it really was a memory.
He was a Prince, in a Kingdom
he lived in a huge Castle and had servants
All day long all his Brothers and Sisters did was waste time..
They taunted and teased their servants for Pleasure.
He didn't see the fun in this,
in fact he fell in love with one of the Servant girls..
As it turned out her family lived on the edge of the Kingdom
They were Farmers and raised most of the food that fed his family..
He was fascinated with farming...
Putting a seed in the ground and caring for it until something Grew
and fed people..
Working in the fields and workin up a sweat.
He thought it was Heaven.
When sitting at the dinner table with his family,
he told them of his fascination with it.
They mocked him horribly.
He didn't care,
and he loved the Farmer girl and actually ran off and Married her and was having a pretty wonderful time...
Well his Mom the Queen..
who by the way was not very nice..
Was horrified....
but worse she was soo embarrassed

How could her favorite son do this to them?
How did it look to their Court?
It was devastating to her.
So she went to the Kings executioner and paid him to secretly murder the farmer woman his son had married....
and one day when the son had come to deliver vegetables to his family,
the executioner stole away and killed the son's wife..
When the son got back to their Farm and saw his wife
his heart broke.....
He went to tell his family as he wanted to bury her in the family plot.
The Mom told him that no Farmer would ever be lain to rest in the family plot
Farmers were dirty, loathsome worthless beings...
and it was most likely the sons fault that she was murdered....
She told the son he was forgiven and could move back to the Castle.
The son was at a loss for what to do,
without his wife he lost his direction..
And he moved back to the Castle.
The Queen and his Brothers and sisters never stopped saying nasty stuff about Farmers..
they wanted to make him Pay for what he did to the Family...
The Son felt so much guilt and shame.....
it ate at his soul.
But he learned to keep distracted,
he started partying with his Brothers and sisters...
even started taunting and Teasing the servants...
He felt guilt for it...
He hated himself for "being the cause of his wife's death"
he hated himself for teasing and taunting the Servants..
But he just kept ignoring it, and seeking out pleasures to avoid the festering pain within him...
Well one of those "Pleasures: ended up giving him Syphilis...
and he died a Horrible Death....

Back to today, and the Farmers son awoke from this "Drug Induced Dream."
It turned out he hadn't shot up enough to kill himself...
He walked out to the Interstate
stuck out his thumb
and hitchhiked back to the Family Farm

And lived Happily ever after....
***************
The roots of our Demons....of our fears can run very deep...
Lifetimes deep...
And we only rid ourselves of them
by facing them
But we don't because in facing them we will have to Feel the Pain
that made them our demons in the first place...
Our Demons,
our pain
is ALWAYS built upon dualistic Judgments

The really funny thing is that once we learn to face them we often see,
That which we had judged in the very beginning as Bad, or Evil..
That which we tucked away in guilt and shame..
Today is something we seek.
Now that's embarrassing ....
We are defined....and manipulated by things we often long ago buried, and tried to forget
All the energy we put towards keeping those thing buried...
only served to feed them,
and make them grow bigger and stronger.....
And even though we held them at bay,
kept them out of our minds
They are what pull our strings
And like puppets we dance a dance
controlled by yesterdays Judgments
Made in Ignorance
(all judgment is ignorance)
If we want to become Masters of our Life.
First we must stop Judging

Then we must face our past judgments
the ones that have become our demons
and the Puppeteer.

Understanding "Protection" and the Cords of Man

Understanding "Protection" and the Cords of Man

I posted this on another site for a woman who was having some difficulties, what came through I really wanted to share here..
Hi (person 1),
About “cutting the cord”
I wrote a long reply here last night… started “channelling Spirit” as some folks call it…and crashed my computer.. This happens all the time, used to think it was some ill intentioned spirit that didn’t want particular info out in the world…cuz it was usually on the subject of “the cords” then a friend pointed out that my energy was just so high in that state it was probably just me…. It’s frustrating though and I’m writing this elsewhere now in hopes of cutting and pasting. So here we go again, sorry this is more coming from memory than a direct connection with the info, but maybe I can get it out this way.
About cutting the cord that (person 2) so intuitively suggested. This is what I wanted to speak with you about…. Her suggestion of visualizing cutting the cord is most intuitive… this is not merely a cute and handy little visualization tool for easing discomfort from someone else’s energy….. these cords actually exist, and it is through actual “cords” that the energy enters us.
The subject of the cords is not very well known for some reason in the “spiritual community” and I give credit to (person 2) for bringing up the method of cutting the cord as it was always my first suggestion to folks wanting “to protect”. So even though my dsl/internet box seems to have been fried last night from too much energy, I’m writing this in Word, constantly saving, and will get it out to you one way or another.
OK, the Cords. There are to my knowledge 2 types. One I call the cords of Man (these are the ones (person 2) spoke of) and then there are what I call the cords of God. I learned about the cords of man through personal observation and was taught about the cords of God by an incredible Teacher who actually used them to fly. Today we are only concerned with the cords of man. Now the cords of man enter us in our umbilical region (use this knowledge in whatever cord cutting ceremony you do). These cords are astral in nature…they are built upon emotional/desire/fear energy. They in many ways (not in appearance but in most other respects) resemble crystals. Two attributes of crystals and cords are of most importance to note. First is that a crystal in solution only draws to itself that which is the same, and second…is the quality of resonance. The cords of man work through resonance and a very large part of human communication is taking place through the resonance of cords. You know how when you get emotional your stomach gets tied in knots…you could say on one level this is the cords getting tangled. Anyway when we are “psychically attacked” it comes into us through these cords. So the cutting of a cord that causes us discomfort can be a solution to “psychic attack”. But it is important to understand how it is that cords work…to understand what exactly cords are so we can gain the most from our experience with the cords of Man.
One way to learn more is to go into some public place and take up a position of observer (stay apart from the human drama). And watch peoples interaction. For instance, in a crowded bar a guy walks in looking to find himself a little company …his cords are flying all over the place…looking to connect… They come out of his belly and probe at every potential conquest… however only some women respond. You can notice that some will “feel” him, before they even see him…some might be responding before they have even sighted the dude. The reason is this…as I said cords work with resonance….each cord is built of a certain blend of astral material..it has it’s own hue so to speak…and when it encounters a similar cord in another person…it resonates…. (Feeling the Chemistry). As I said so much of human interaction takes place on this level…and it’s not a problem unless it is not comfortable for one person. Have you ever noticed how you can feel someone checkin you out before you see them, or heard the expression that they “had the feeling of being watched”, well that was awareness of a probing cord. Humans are virtually puppets to these cords sometimes. Now I think it is important to understand where these cords come from…as I have stated they are of an astral nature… Being of an astral nature they are an impediment to our spiritual growth, and the fact is they are buried so deeply in us some times, buried hundreds or even thousands of years in our past. OK, it works like this… this is where the seeds to the cords come from….actually I’m only going to address the cords that cause us discomfort here.
OK (person 1), we have lived a very long time in human bodies, hundreds and thousands of years. Folks on spiritual forums tend to be older than folks on certain other forums….. so during the course of countless lifetimes we have done many “good” things, as well as many “bad” things. Of course now in this lifetime we are understanding that these dualistic judgements are no longer useful or valid, but a thousand years ago when we cut off some dudes head for messin with our significant other… we felt really bad about it later…we didn’t like ourselves much and we didn’t like the guilt we felt or the idea that we were these “bad” people. So we pushed that memory into a dark corner of ourselves so we would not have to feel ashamed. Throughout thousands of years we have pushed thousands of things into dark corners… every thing we fear…we push away, just as we pull every thing we desire to ourselves. Well every thing we fear that we have pushed away to make ourselves more comfortable in our skins…does not go away…and the energy that is required to keep it in that dark place out of the way…feeds it. In all our efforts to avoid those things we have judged fearfully…as bad…. We have not dispelled them in the least, they may be out of sight, but the law of manifestation that says wherever we put energy there will be manifestation in one form or another related to the energy….and as I said it takes a great deal of energy Not to face our fears…
I’ll restate that…It takes a great deal of energy not to face our fears…. And with this energy feeding each repressed judgement of “bad”… what forms is the cords of Man. So now we dance like puppets at the mercy of our fears, our past judgements…and whenever someone comes along with a similar cord, there is a resonance that reminds us of a long repressed “judgement” we had generally about ourselves.
You see so much of our human problems arise because humans have a far more difficult time loving and forgiving themselves, than they do loving and forgiving others… So we carry repressed guilt and judgements of “bad” around for centuries… And they are kept held back in their place because by now all the energy that has gone into repressing them has built them into HUGE monsters that we really fear.
When we are victims of psychic attack we are resonating with a cord that someone has, that also exists in us… in a repressed state…and huge. In a psychic attack it is not the “others” energy that causes us distress, it is actually our own… being hit like a tuning fork by theirs. When it comes down to it, ALL psychic attack really comes from our own past…not some other persons energy…that is just the catalyst that reminds us.
The problem is that if we were suddenly to see all the things we have pushed into dark corners for centuries and fed with the energy of our repression… we’d come to the idea we were the Devil Himself…. This is why we choose to keep those things held back in their dark places…. But this is also the only reason we are subject to “psychic attack”.
You (person 1) are a very sensitive person, but you have this idea deep within that you are not as loveable as you are. You have this deep seated feeling that you are not a beautiful, incredible glowing creation…and you base this on deeds you judged hundreds and thousands of years ago.
Skin problems and joint problems are very very often caused when these demons we have pushed into dark corners…try to escape, and we won’t let them.
The key is not further repression of these demons…that only feeds them. The key is LOVING them TO DEATH.
(person 1)…. Know so deeply in your heart that you are so loveable…. Deeds done were human deeds, we all do them, and they are all forgiveable. The way I look at psychic attacks is they are a gift… a reminder that somewhere way back when, we made a judgement that was not based in love… Now the “attack” is a reminder of that judgement, so we can love it, and free it.
You see (person 1), bad skin and joint problems are a “psychic attack” that is originating in you, towards you.
The external attack you had from that other person started to uproot certain cords of yours, hence the discomfort at suddenly becoming aware of them. Then after that “attack” you diligently tried to put those cords back in their dark places so you wouldn’t have to feel them. The skin breakouts are caused by repression of our awareness of our own cords. Because you are becoming enlightened and the things in the dark corners…the roots of the cords…are being exposed. Now the choice is to lovingly and fearlessly face them… or repress them some more…. But that won’t work forever…it might give temporary respite…but your body is telling you that it’s not going to work anymore. It’s time to Love and Forgive yourself…and past “Transgressors”.
You might do some past life regression therapy…cuz part of the problem is that the roots go so deep and the plant grown and the fruit it bears barely resembles the root, so we don’t know the enemy we need to Love.
When I was in High School I was the king of the Nerds. I was the archetype Nerd. My Mom dressed me in polyester and I had a sizeable collection of pocket protectors. Well the polyester, and my self consciousness made me sweat like a fiend. I had 12 inch circular rings in my armpits that would go all the way down to my waist. I tried putting toilet paper under my pits, but when that fell out of my sleeves ..it was worse than dealing with the rings. People called me Lake Erie Arm Pits…and that was my friends. He he Ouch…anyway the more I worried about my sweaty pits, the worse they got. Finally in my senior year I took this class (this was the end of the 60’s)..and this was a class called human development, first ..and sadly last of it’s kind back then…. But it did me a lot of good and I stopped worrying about what people thought of me, I found out in that class that the person who was hardest on me…was me…the rest of the folks were havin their own issues. Anyway in one day, upon this realization…my arm pits dried up..
Not sure why I shared this…somehow seemed pertinent.
Anyway (person 1), Protection works… and cutting, or sidestepping the cords that are probed at you…works…very well. But it is only temporary, it does not remove the problem, because the truth is that the problem is in you…in the past. And these cords in you you can not cut…. You have to pull them up. And this is done with Love and forgiveness.
Love yourself from Beginning to end…know that everything about you is sacred and beautiful. You are a blessing to the world, and have been for thousands of years…even when you thought and judged otherwise. Love yourself to the deepest reaches of your soul and your face will clear and joints be free. You don’t have to Fear because what you are really fearing has no substance beyond what you give it, and when you finally come face to face with what it is that you actually fear..and love it…. You will laugh and laugh and cry tears of Joy.
You are blessed (person 1)….remember that.